How I’m more afraid of drowning than Peter

I went to a doctor’s appoint this week and was talking about our move to Uganda. In the middle of our conversation, she stopped, looked up at me, and said, “wow, so you’re going to have to…um…quit your job, huh?”

…yes.2 weeks ago Jesse submitted his resignation letter. Fortunately, he’ll be able to work part-time in essentially the same position, through the end of the year. This means we are taking the first (seemingly irreversible) step in the transition from our pre-missionary lives to our “living-in-Uganda-as-missionaries” lives.

This leads to a feeling of complete excitement, laced with a hint of paralyzing fear.

The analogy I keep thinking of is in Matthew 14, when Jesus calls Peter to walk on the water…

27 But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.”  28 “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.”  29 “Come,” he said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus.

What?! Seriously? He just stepped on out there? Like it was totally normal.

I feel like we are being called out onto the waters of trusting God and community, but we are scared to step off the edge of our boat; our boat named “Dual-Income, Socially Acceptable, American, Security.”

It’s not like Peter didn’t get scared…

30 But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”  31 Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”

…but I’m not even getting to the storms yet. I’m scared at Step1. I have a feeling that Jesus reaches out his hand even at Step1, though.

This process has revealed so much about in what we put our trust. Money. Medical care. Careers. Government. Education. Police.

But what should we trust?

Proverbs 3:5 –  Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.

 

This often feels like the least comfortable thing to do. I impulsively lean on my own understanding. However, I have noticed that impulse doesn’t always work out for me, and God is there every time when I trust in Him.

We’ll continue to practice leaning on the Lord instead our own understanding through this whole process. We’ll have some successes and some failures, but we know Jesus will reach out His hand and catch us each time.

Thank you for joining us on this journey.

~Team Geiger

A brief update…

We are now 18% funded (monthly) and are in full Partner Development mode! Please, contact us if you or someone you know would like to know more about the work we hope to be a part of in Uganda, and our process to get there!

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